The God Within Your Spirit

Last week ago I was "fasting in the Spirit" and praying and reading this neat lil' Christian prayer devotional booklet called "Grieving with Hope Leaning on Jesus" by elder brother Time Wesemann.

It's a great lil' prayer read. I enjoyed it. It was truthful writing from the man's heart. Can't argue with that...

There's something for everyone in it, or that's just a "generalization" on my part.

Humanity is *COMPLEX*... Smh...

Reading his written words, I got sense of the spirit of the man who wrote them even though I had no thought of who the elder brother in Christ was; but the truth of the words he wrote "resonated" with my spirit personally in the ways I can universally relate...

Nobody really "understands" another human being's heart or soul.

I'd be lying if I really "said" I did...

I don't "know" or "understand" other people besides what they want to share (if they want to share that is...). I don't always done. I like to "stay hidden" and *SECRET*.

Only *GOD* knows and understands everything about everybody HE CREATED.

The "Perfect Designer" knows EVERYTHING about the "designed creation". EVERYTHING.

That's His Domain and all we lil' human-beings can never understand in this life unless God will show us His Understanding in the "New Life".

Only HOLY SPIRIT in Christ grounds me in His Character. Period.

I'm NOT "good" on my own merits. I don't accept it. It's not "real".

What is "good" apart from GOD'S GOODNESS anyways? *GOD IS GOOD*... Goodness comes only from God in Origin.

I don't want anything "second-hand" I only want the REAL DEAL! The REAL THING!

One lil' slip up, ONE "dirty lil' sin" and I'm reminded I'm NO BETTER THAN THE WORST SCUM OF THE EARTH lol.

Yeah right. I'm no better than the "heathen folk"; what's the point?

I just "try" to at least "be a better person outwardly" but inwardly I'm a black hole of PRIDE, CONFUSION, STRIFE, CONTENTION and SCORN...

I got issues to and don't have it "all together" and I don't even want to change sometimes 'cause it's hard work and I'm "comfortable" where I'm at but gotta break it though for the "greater good" screw "Jed Mask"; it's not about him.

I "hate my life" but that's so silly and over said, just go change it and keep it to yourself. Forget it.

Don't matter. Just go DO what's right regardless.

Goal must be accomplished.

How can I "puff myself up" to the *GOD*? Lol

I won't "embarrass myself" like that...

I'm walking away to live in complete silence and solitude without bothering with You.

My prayers are "short" and maybe "insincere", though I do care to pray, right?

Well sometimes I DO CARE. I DO CARE; I just want immediate results.

I hate WAITING!

But I don't want to make more "problems" in my life to have to deal with them later.

Just keep on praying like I'm talking to Him directly is how we must "come to God".

Like Someone we're comfortable with 'cause He knows the "good 'n bad" in us whether we accept it or not.

Prayer in AWENESS to the sheer magnificence of a HOLY GOD when human life is so short and quick.

What happened?!

It's always a "personal thing" with God; not no "business relationship": we are His creatures, we have nothing He desires apart from our WORSHIP and OBEDIENCE to Him out of our FREE WILL.

We all NAKED before Him. We can't even attempt to "cover up our sins and brokenness" lol...

Can't run or hide from Him.

We're always SUBJECT to His Will whether we like it or not.

God can have everything but our FREE WILL for when we decide to worship, obey, serve Him or not.

God don't wanna "force" what He rightly deserves as Great Good Creator of His creation.

We "creation" in our sinful FREE WILL can't, WON'T tolerate God's Perfect Standards of Holiness.

Be prayerful to God in Spirit...

"Lord, I need your help. Can't do it without you. Don't even want to ask for your help but I know I should. Help me to be humble, to be loving, forgiving, kind, likable. Just TAKE OVER this FREE WILL 'cause I can't and don't really want to do everything Your Way all the time and want to do things MY WAY; but at the same time know I'll regret making that mistake and having to have to 'apologize' and 'repent' later for my sins... Help me do right when I don't want to..."

I try to keep the "cursing" any "hateful rhetoric" to my inner thoughts and emotions: let God just be respected and don't attack Him with what He already knows. DON'T WASTE TIME insulting Him by opening your mouth to verbally say something. Just SHUT UP and move on like nothing happened.

Pray those "responsible prayers" you keep failing to pray for: you forgot to pray for your brethren in Christ, your family sometimes, your country, your nation's leaders; EVERYBODY, EVERYTHING.

You win some; you lose most in the whole.

With some victories come MANY DEFEATS IN RETURN.

You're just MAN TRYING TO BE LIKE GOD and know you're just A MAN if even that...

You're IMPATIENT with your FAILINGS and must OVERCOMPENSATE with continuing "working on your projects"; putting everything and everyone to the side in "one-sighted focus" you lose everything but must not forget "what's important" though you refuse to accept it...

Thanks GOD for Who you are and I look down to the ground if ever these sin-cursed eyes defile the Brightness of Your Sheer Holiness...

There are NO GOOD PEOPLE; only a GOOD GOD in the end.

We don't want to "obey" and "serve" You like you desire though.

We want Your Blessings and *NOT YOUR AUTHORITY*!

You Know Best God... Amen."

A "Coin Toss of Faith"

A thing I've learned to do a while back now when "hearing the Voice of God" in prayer is for me to try to get "confirmation of His Will by the Holy Spirit".

Sometimes when I'm praying and I ask God, "God, do you want me to go there or stay here?" or "God, do you want me to do this or do that?"; I believe I hear either the Voice of the Lord speaking to me telling me what He wants me to do OR it's the Devil, Satan coming in trying to deceive and sabatoge my efforts.

To deal with this personal ordeal of "discernment" I've been inspired by the "faith-testing" method of Gideon in the Bible of how he "tested" and "confirmed" God's Will for him in his life in KJV Judges 6:36-40 when Gideon used the fleece of wool for his personal "confirmation" of God's Will.

Well, in my own personal "spin" on Gideon's "faith-testing method" I thought of "Hey, why not do a "coin toss" to ask for confirmation of God's Will concerning me?"

So I'm like this: just taking out any coin I have in my wallet, be it a quarter, dime, nickel or penny and I pray to God saying, "God, I'm not exactly sure what you want me to do; so please give me 'confirmation' of Your Will so I know what to do. I'm gonna get a coin out and face it head's up resting on top of my right hand's thumb finger. Then I'm going to count saying, '1, 2, 3, go!' and then flip the coin facing head's up with the flick of my right hand's thumb and if it lands on "heads" that means You want me to go or do this. If the coin lands on "tails" that means You don't want me to go to that place or do that. Please let me know as I get ready to do this. Then I say "Amen" in closing the prayer.

Next, I finally "perform" the coin toss counting "1, 2, 3... Go!" and flick the coin facing head's up on my right thumb into the air and let it fall down where it will and if it's "heads" it means it goes I go to the place or do the task or thing I'm thinking to do from God's Input; or if it's "tails" it means I don't go to the place I'm thinking of going to and I may "stay where I'm at at home" and I don't do what I was thinking of doing and instead do something else instead.

I do this prayerful "coin toss of faith" in many areas of my personal life of "decision-making"; even asking God if He wanted me to marry or not... And after repeated "prayer faith coin tosses" He *CONFIRMED* His Answer for me; much to my "shock" and personal "disappointment" but after repeated "coin toss" that came up the "same consistent answer" in a row that God already told me in His Heart but I didn't want to "accept" in my heart; I realized then that GOD was telling me His Will for that area in my life.

Sometimes if my mind's "real fuzzy" and I'm thinking I'm hearing all kinds of "voices" whispering in my head that aren't the Hoy Spirit I keep doing this coin toss enough times until I hear *GOD'S VOICE* through the "crowded voices" of the Enemy and THEN I pretty much know for sure most of the time if not completely sure that GOD wanted this for His Will in my life or not.

Try the "coin toss" out.

I think it'll be very helpful in a lot of areas of life for many people. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

Wrestling With TEMPTATION: Prayer Talk!

Gotta TALK OUT LOUD. Keep TALKING.

Don't have to make sense all the time long as I'm aware.

Have to keep self from temptation. Recognize you want to "sin" but hold out and turn to JESUS.

Yes, make sure you "pass the test" for HIM.

What you have to do, DO don't keep thinking or wavering in thought.

Pray real quick and do something keep yourself from giving into the temptation.

See that sexy-looking woman don't go to look at poor or something stupid.

Do RIGHT, be RIGHT, think RIGHT.

Think not evil or wickedness.

God is LOVE. Keeping thinking, focusing on GOOD THOUGHTS. GOOD STUFF...

All the GOOD and NOT THE BAD! Amen!

Also, also, keep "thanking Jesus" in prayer saying "Thank You Jesus for life, good sunny days and everything. Thank You for this day to live and everything. Amen.